The pain of losing a child is perhaps more daunting to a mother.
The grief that still grips Catherine Wawira whose sons Benson Njiru, 22, and Emmanuel Mutura, 19, allegedly died at the hands of police officers, is one only her soul can tell.
But her lips give us a glimpse of her struggles as she hopes to come to terms with her pain and loss. Speaking to TV47, the distraught mother, narrated the struggle of living without her two sons.
She said she still feels connected to her children and so every morning, she walks into their room and makes their bed, a practice she plans to do for the rest of her life.
“I am their mother and when I wake up, I always go to their bedrooms and make their beds, though they are not here with me,” she said on the verge of breaking down.
A heartbroken Wawira added that she has lost interest in people, and she rarely leaves her house because she feels embarrassed.
“It has been a month and I cannot even go to the market because I am feeling ashamed. Right now if I say I will give birth to another child, I won’t have Ben or Emannuel, so I won’t give birth anymore, we just leave everything in God’s hands,” she said.
The family was mourning again following the death of their grandmother who died from the trauma that arose after losing her two grandchildren.
Close family members said that she succumbed to depression from high blood pressure resulting from the mysterious death of her grandsons.